I was cleaning out my office today and decided to give the penguin wings. Sometimes it's best not to overthink stuff. And sometimes finishing something like this little project lifts an intangible weight off your brain and reminds you it's OK to put something on hold until you're in the right place.
Monday, March 15, 2021
For today's post, I'm inviting you to check out this gift guide I shared on my writer's website:
Sunday, February 28, 2021
I'm having a great time birding in 2021. I've completed an eBird.org checklist every day this year. I've seen 54 species!
I wanted to celebrate my 50th species for the year - it was a sharp-shinned hawk - but I wasn't able to snap a photo.
My 51st was a grackle, no photo either.
I saw a raven - species #52! No photos.
Sorry. It's hard to get photos sometimes!
The same day I saw the raven, I saw canvasback ducks and greater scaups, two different kinds of diving duck.
Sunday, February 14, 2021
I had fun doing this paint by number project in January. Parts were frustrating - like sections that were too small for any of my paintbrushes. But it wasn't as stressful as the crochet project because I could listen to webinars or podcasts while I painted. Here's the progression of my paint by number!
Sunday, January 31, 2021
I gave blood for the first time last week. A friend urged me to and something clicked - it was time. Turns out I'm O+, a very useful blood type. I found out my mom has donated over a gallon of blood! I'm inspired by her and eager to follow her example. It felt good to know I was helping people, but I'm not going to lie - someone bringing me snacks and drinks while I chilled in a quiet room was pretty nice also.
Sunday, January 17, 2021
I wrote an article about the Great Backyard Bird Count back in 2019. I'm so excited to participate in 2021, my 3rd year. Are you ready to join me this year? Let's get counting!
Friday, January 15, 2021
I love doing crafts but I'm actually really bad at most of them. That's because I'm impulsive and impatient and not particularly good at taking the time to re-do things when I do them wrong. I just keep going and don't worry about if things are perfect. I don't like to go slow. I just want to DO the things.
I really wanted one of these little amigurumi crochet animal kits from The Woobles. Honestly they are so cute. And so small. I thought it would be a good first project. I put it on my Christmas list and on Christmas morning it was there under the tree.
I started the project that day!!
But it was hard, actually. And I made some mistakes. And I realized I couldn't rush through this. So I stopped, undid my few stitches and waited.
A few days later I gathered things I would need: a laptop for videos. The pattern. Pens to check off rounds. I watched the first videos a few times. I started. I messed up. I restarted. I messed up. I restarted. This is very unlike me to undo and restart. I would much rather push through. I restarted.
The penguin currently sits wingless on my desk. It is cute. It is darn cute. But it is also a little terrifying. I'm scared of how this penguin made me feel about myself. I was really, really hard on myself. I was judging myself for how unhappy I was about a craft. This was a sobering, strange experience.
I don't know when I'll have the gumption to go back and finish the wings. There's a gamble here. If I wait too long I'll forget the skills I acquired to make this project. If I go back too soon I might be just as frustrated.
What if I didn't do the wings? Would that be so bad?
But every time I sit at my desk, I see the unfinished project. I know it's not done.
And the penguin is there. It's shiny plastic eyes beg for wings.